I arrived in Japan, ready to accept any differences, to adapt to any unknown situation, to find my bearings among uncertainties. Guided by my will to understand and to create relationships, I tried my best to communicate, using languages, gestures, attitudes, and in order to give ground to this communication, I found similarities, things we had in common. We were all together at the same place, living a comparable adventure and sharing our experiences. Eventually, my Chinese friends were not that different and we got to communicate, to understand each other. I have never had the opportunity to study the history of this people, of this country which intrigues and moves me, but I do like its people because I could create a deep relationship with some of them.
I probably transmitted more than I can imagine, but maybe because I am European, I might have communicated my sense of individuality (knowing and recognizing everyone and each as a unique person), liberty of expression (not only thinking what is being said, but also saying what is being thought), friendship based on interindividual relations and not only because of the membership to a common group, unselfishness to compensate selfishness…
But once I got back in France, distance took its place. The Internet and new technologies could not help it, they just feigned to make believe for a while in the existence of a substitute to direct contact. Media came in between, shelling me with well-selected images of China which were supposed to represent this great big land. My mates and friends know more about this country than I do even though they barely speak to Chinese people and only meet them in institutionalized frames.
I think I unconsciously kept something of Asia in me. Whereas students worry about their own business, their own knowledge, their own projects, I keep on considering the class as a group, and I am continuously doing my utmost to share my information, my knowledge, my motivation and my support. I help for us to go forward together and sometimes this help is even being refused under the pretext of an inability of giving back, as if reaching a common goal would not sue for both common/collective and individual efforts.
I know now that Europeans are holding on to their history to avoid at all costs and ignore an identity crisis which seems to be inevitable. Globalization, Europe, new technologies, erase the relationship with otherness which allowed us to define us and we dig deeper in the perpetuation of memorials and commemorations which do not make any sense to anyone or which do not make any sense to everyone. Our buildings do stay but their history are being forgotten, preference is given to non-places where we live our accelerated life with less and less meaning. Our history is arbitrary and not lived.
I have had a deep respect for the labour force of Asians who, following goals which keep for me quite understandable because their values are not mine, can still sacrifice and struggle for going where they want to go. I now have a deep respect for this intelligence, which consists in mixing tradition and modernity, past, present and future.
I still have so much to learn from them, but so little time and energy. My curiosity will wait for its time to express itself. My friendship won’t stop manifesting itself.